do you ever feel physically sick because you know you’re not good enough for anybody and you can’t do anything right and you’re too tired
Holy shit. I fed the addiction. I need more. Holy shit.
I failed. Back to zero I am.
I am about two seconds away from relapsing.
i hope one day you are at peace with yourself. i hope you can take a shower without crying and you can close your eyes without thinking about your funeral. i hope one day you start singing in the shower again and are happy for no reason. i hope you get better, because you really deserve to.
I am so sad.
So not in the mood for school today. I just want to cry. I feel disgusting. I’m not ready.
I feel like I’m going to cut but, lets face it, I’m a senior. I can’t go to college with scars on my arm. At least the oones I already have are old and barely noticeable unless you look directly at my arm. And those were done freshman year. There’s NO WAY I’m going to go to school with new scars on my arms.
But I feel like I can’t breathe. I need to do something. I’m losing my mind. I’m going to lose it.
I’ve decided to do this for myself. I don’t know where this decision willlead me, but I trust myself and I feel better now. I’m proud if myself.
I truly hate myself right now. I mean, why am i doing this to myself and to others. I just don’t understand what I’m doing with my life anymore. -sigh- Maybe I should stop trying. Period. Maybe I shouldn’t even try to be happy.